Bits from Freewebs

So.. my Freewebs site is under construction (yet again). Here's what was on the Thoughts page.

11-28-05

First: Regarding LoveI think that love is really, as Pink Floyd states, a momentary lapse of reason that binds a life for life. This makes sense because all it really takes is one moment, and that person can be under your skin forever.

Second: Regarding Life Lessons and My FatherHere are some things I've learned from my father over the years.
1. When using a staple gun, it always works better if you say "Oy!" while you staple.
2. Taco salad tastes better on the couch in front of the football game.
3. Iowa City is the greatest city in the world.
4. When stretching, yelling "Kasban! Salabah!" at the top of your lungs increases stretch productivity.
5. When you can't remember someone's name, either
a) invent a song to go with it (ex. "Folly-Molly-Tauke-Ray-oh")
b) call them by the first name that pops into your head
(ex. "Amos" instead of "Andy" for your daughter's boyfriend)
6. Drawstrings on pants are for people with inhibitions.
7. There's a difference between good rock and bad rock, and the difference is this:
the Who vs. Queen
(in modern-day terms, Green Day vs. Good Charlotte)
8. Raise thy daughter in thy own image, lest she turn out just like everyone else.

11-22-05: Regarding "I Am the Walrus" by the Beatles [Album = Magical Mystery Tour] I see John Lennon standing in front of a movie screen in an empty theater. He is moving slightly, in time with the music, as he sings. As the song progresses, the screen behind him flickers to life, displaying random images and scenes of humanity. The scenes play faster and faster until a crowd of people whorls by at 80 times normal speed. John continues singing and moving in time with the music. The screen turns to static as the song reaches its climax… then turns to blue. As the song ends, John stops singing. Simultaneously, he freezes, and is silhouetted from behind by a dazzling white spotlight.

11-22-05
I have this to say about nachos:
Go light on the chips and heavy with the cheese. Don’t use plastic plates. The 34 seconds you microwave them for can be used to seal the chip bag and put it back in the pantry. Also, you’ll have time to seal the bag of shredded cheese and replace it in the fridge. Variety in cheese is good – cheddar, Colby, Monterey jack, Swiss, mozzarella…Ranch dressing adds great flavour. Wash them down with milk

11-19-05
I really do better off without my family, just sitting here and listening to Sinead O'Connor.
I hope I die before I get old. I don't want to be dependent ever again.
Man oh man, am I tired.
What precisely is the reasoning behind mullets?

11-10-05 I called Dan because talking about nothing in particular to someone who doesn’t hear gossip about me is a very appealing thing. It makes me feel better.
Right now, all I can do is sit here in the dark, listen to A Perfect Circle’s version of “People are People”, and hate myself.

11-9-05 Walking around town today, I grew pensive. I wore my black Converse high tops, black jeans, a black trench coat, and my Pink Floyd cap with all the pins on. There was money and a cell phone in my pocket and a little black backpack on my back. I carried a steaming hot chocolate in my hand. My nose and cheeks were rosy, and I felt like a young woman in the city: content, thoughtful.

Love. 10-16-05
Love is a funny thing. When I was younger, I wasn't going to fall in love; there was no doubt. Once I hit puberty, it was more of an "I don't want to fall in love" thing (Don't Wanna Fall In Love - Green Day). There's also "I don't want to wait in vain for your love" (Waiting in Vain - Bob Marley). And here I go... it's happened to me, just like I never thought it would. I'm in love with someone who is so unlike me at first glance you'd laugh. But once you got to know him like you know me, you'd realize that we're not so different at all.
Then there are the things that no one knows about me but him. These are the areas where we're most alike.
I never used to have a future, you know? I never wanted to be around people... I was going to go live the ascetic lifestyle of a hermit and write frightening verse to buck-toothed girls in Luxembourg (Ask - the Smiths). But now I do want to spend the rest of my life with someone.
Crazy.

First. 9-16-05
I deleted the Depressed Entries page, since I am no longer so depressed, and have changed it to merely Thoughts, which you have here. Whenever it is possible, I shall record a thought for you here, whichever has been most on my mind that particular day. Here's to today's...
One must be proactive, not reactionary.
There's also, "Holy effing crap, a CHEMISTRY test?!"

Intro - Welcome to My Thoughts
I’ve got this to say about life – you learn a heckuva lot. How to tie your shoes. How to get dressed. How to read; how to write. What not to tell your parents. Names of colours, names of shapes, names of countries, states, capitals. Songs, bands, genres of music, movies, books. How to add, subtract, multiply, divide, solve for unknown variables, logarithms. How to determine the chemical makeup of a compound. How to draw a portrait. Letters of the alphabet. How to count. How to walk, how to run, what happens when you touch a hot stove or anger a dog. The definitions of more words than you use on a daily basis. The names of the Beatles – then the names of the Who, of Queen, of Pink Floyd, Green Day, NOFX, the Story Changes, Bachman Turner Overdrive, Antigenre. How to alphabetize things; how to use the Dewey Decimal System. Sometimes it’s little things you learn that you don’t think people pay enough attention to. That’s why you write about them and post what you wrote on the “Thoughts” page of your Freewebs.

Well then.
Another recently-learned life lesson. Love sucks.
"Love hurts, love scars...""Love is old, love is new..."
Aiee.

Current Event

He added: “Hitler had a good 20 to 30 IQ points on Bush, so comparing Bush to Hitler would in many ways be an insult to Hitler.”

http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/15217627/

Do a current event on this.

So... again.

Zorba rolls, chocolate soy milk, and cookies made with Pirate's Pearl M&Ms are all delightfully tastly.

[Big Bottom by Spinal Tap]The bigger the cushion, the sweeter the pushin'
That's what I said
The looser the waistband, the deeper the quicksand
Or so I have read

My baby fits me like a flesh tuxedo
I'd like to sink her with my pink torpedo

Big bottom, big bottom
Talk about bum cakes, my girl's got 'em
Big bottom drive me out of my mind
How could I leave this behind?

I met her on Monday, twas my lucky bun day
You know what I mean
I love her each weekday, each velvety cheek day
You know what I mean

My love gun's loaded and she's in my sights
Big game is waiting there inside her tights, yeah

Big bottom, big bottom
Talk about mud flaps, my girl's got 'em
Big bottom drive me out of my mind
How could I leave this behind?

[...okay.]
Trombones are amazing. Marching band is joyous. Government class involves way too much homework and all-too-frequent tests. English class is a great place to do Government homework. Physics is fun at an accelerated pace. Matthew is weird, but so are Bailey and I so we make THEE best Physics group ever. World Cultures is a good place to stare at the back of the new kid's head and try to work up the courage to say something to him, because he's so flippin' quiet.

[Pathetic sedatives.]
Got my liscence. wOO.

A Day in the Life

So, I'm sitting and eating a plum. Wayne's World is on in the other room, right at the beginning (they just got done with Bohemian Rhapsody adn the woman that makes Garth completely unattainable *tear* is about to come on the screen). I'm also thinking. You see, there are a number of aspects of life right now which, though I may complain about them, I absolutely adore. And it's weird. But my workload - which at this point of my life consists mainly of homework - keeps me busy. I love tackling things I don't understand and figuring them out. Doing chores - dishes, laundry, vaccuuming - gives me time to just think about things. Marching band rehearsals - well, we all love those, no matter what we say.

Life is all right, all told. Actually, it's more than all right: it's pretty damn good. Party on. Excellent.

Sure, I'm busy. Between staying in shape, school, schoolwork, chores, band practice, Speech, plus eating, sleeping, and showering and attempting to maintain a functional romantic relationship, my plate's about full.

I'm loving it.

Bring it on, world.

English Muffins

Can be used to make pizza.

Can you tell I'm not feeling very insightful today?

A Few Spontaneous Things

1. I haven't posted here in a LONG time.
2. There's a troll on my desk.
3. I finally bought "Atom Heart Mother", and I am madly in love with it.
4. I like roller coasters.
5. "I am a writer, writer of fictions..."
6. That troll really freaks me out.
7. Scissors...?
8. Everything is Illuminated. See it. Now.
9. Ahar, me buckoes.
10. All done!

"...put me where I belong..."

"Who is the man I see?
Where I'm supposed to be?
I lost my heart,
I buried it too deep
Under the iron sea

Oh, crystal ball, crystal ball
Save us all, tell me life is beautiful
Mirror, mirror on the wall
Lines ever more unclear
I'm not sure I'm even here
The more I look the more I think that I'm
Starting to disappear

Oh, crystal ball, crystal ball
Save us all, tell me life is beautiful
Mirror, mirror on the wall
Oh, crystal ball, hear my song
I'm fading out, everything I know is wrong
So put me where I belong
I don't where I am
And I don't really care
I look myself in eye
There's noone there
I fall upon the earth
I call upon the air
But all I get is the same old vacant stare

Oh, crystal ball, crystal ball
Save us all, tell me life is beautiful
Mirror, mirror on the wall
Oh, crystal ball, hear my song
I'm fading out, everything I know is wrong
So put me where I belong"

~~ Keane, "Crystal Ball"

What? More Boingo?

You worry too much
You make yourself sad
You can't change fate
But don't feel so bad
Enjoy it while you can
It's just like the weather
So quit complaining brother
No one lives forever!!

Let's have a party there's a full moon in the sky
It's the hour of the wolf and I don't want to die

I'm so happy dancing while the grim reaper
cuts, cuts, cuts
But he can't get me
I'm as clever as can be, and I'm very quick,
But don't forget we've only got so many tricks
No one lives forever!!!

You think you got it rough?
What about your darling doggy?
Ten short years,
He's getting old and groggy
I don't think it's very fair
Cold, chop, low, but it's all relative my friend;
No one lives forever!!!
Let's have a party there's a full moon in the sky
It's the hour of the wolf and I don't want to die

(But) No one beats him at his game
For very long but just the same
Who cares, there's no place safe to hide
Nowhere to run--no time to cry
So celebrate while you still can
'Cause any second it may end.
And when it's all been said and done . . .
Better that you had some fun
Instead of hiding in a shell,
Why make your life a living hell?
So have a toast, and down the cup
And drink to bones that turn to dust,
'Cause No one, no one, no one, no one . . . . . . .
No one lives forever!!
(Hey!)

[Sigh...] Don't you just adore the Boingo-ness?

Being Highly Conservative...

...can certainly be altered, don't you think?
That's what I'm going to think, especially since today I'm being optimistic.

"I have no reason to be over-optimistic, but somehow when you smile I can brave bad weather..."

Name that quote, you muffin! I dare you!

Hmn.

"I should tell you..."

You know what? Mistoffelees (sp?) is my favourite Cat. I think he's adorable. Plus, he's shiny and otherwise magical. Which is more than you can say, isn't it?

"Was there ever a cat so clever as magical Mr. Mistoffelees?"

Pippin

Say what you will, I enjoyed Pippin. Sure, you have to compensate for Fosse's choreography style if you don't like that sort of thing, but overall I loved the story.
Loved it.
Production review, anyone?
http://www.ibdb.com/production.asp?ID=3096

"...light is changing to shadow..."

"On the turning away
From the pale and downtrodden
And the words they say
Which we won’t understand
Don’t accept that what’s happening
Is just a case of others’ suffering
Or you’ll find that you’re joining in
The turning away
It’s a sin that somehow
Light is changing to shadow
And casting it’s shroud
Over all we have known
Unaware how the ranks have grown
Driven on by a heart of stone
We could find that we’re all alone
In the dream of the proud
On the wings of the night
As the daytime is stirring
Where the speechless unite
In a silent accord
Using words you will find are strange
And mesmerized as they light the flame
Feel the new wind of change
On the wings of the night
No more turning away
From the weak and the weary
No more turning away
From the coldness inside
Just a world that we all must share
It’s not enough just to stand and stare
Is it only a dream that there’ll be
No more turning away?"
-- Pink Floyd, "On The Turning Away" from the album Momentary Lapse of Reason

[*] This sums up everything. Everything.
[*] I love this song.
[*] I... I think I love him. Whoa.

"...have you forgot about me?"

[Song: "Don't Stop Dancing" by Creed from the album Weathered]
"At times life is wicked and I just can't see the light. A silver lining sometimes isn't enough to make some wrongs seem right. Whatever life brings, I've been through everything, and now I'm on my knees again, but I know I must go on. Although I hurt I must be strong, because inside I know that many feel this way. Children, don't stop dancing. Believe you can fly away...away. At times life's unfair and you know it's plain to see. Hey God I know I'm just a dot in this world; have you forgot about me? Whatever life brings, I've been through everything, and now I'm on my knees again, but I know I must go on. Although I hurt I must be strong, because inside I know that many feel this way. Children, don't stop dancing. Believe you can fly away...away. Am I hiding in the shadows? Forget the pain, and forget the sorrows. Am I hiding in the shadows? Forget the pain, and forget the sorrows. But I know I must go on. Although I hurt I must be strong, because inside I know that many feel this way. Children, don't stop dancing. Believe you can fly away...away. Am I hiding in the shadows? Are we hiding in the shadows?"

[First; Urk]
Nervous about tonight's concert? Why, yes! Why, you ask? Well, maybe because I'm running on three hours of sleep and have two big projects overdue that I'd hoped to work on tonight. Eff.

"...I should tell you..."

[ROGER] I should tell you I'm disaster
I forget how to begin it
[MIMI] Let's just make this part go faster
I have yet to be in it
I should tell you
[ROGER] I should tell you
[MIMI] I should tell you
[ROGER] I should tell you
[MIMI] I should tell I blew the candle out just to get back in
[ROGER] I'd forgotten how to smile until your candle burned my skin
[MIMI] I should tell you
[ROGER] I should tell you
[MIMI] I should tell you
[BOTH] I should tell you,
Well here we go
Now we-
[MIMI] Oh no
[ROGER] I know - this something is, here goes-
[MIMI]Here goes
[ROGER ]Guess so, it's starting to...Who knows?
[MIMI]Who knows
[BOTH]Who knows where?
Who goes there?
Who knows?
Here goes
Trusting desire - starting to learn
Walking through fire without a burn
Clinging - a shoulder a leap begins
Stinging and older, asleep on pins
So here we go; now we-
[ROGER] Oh no
[MIMI] I know
[ROGER] Oh no
[BOTH] Who knows where
Who goes there?
Here goes
Here goes
Here goes
Here goes
Here goes
Here goes

--- "I Should Tell You" from Rent

Should I tell him? Should I indeed?

*sigh* He hasn't emailed me for days. I wonder if he found the note. *mortification*

"...eeurgh..."

Boys are stupid.

No offense to the boys I like.

Let's rephrase that.

The boys I don't like are stupid.

For those of you I do like... sorry you have to be part of such a stupid gender.

It's not your fault.

>.>

<.<

Lots of girls stink too.

People.

Guh.

A Song Stuck.

This song is stuck in my head.
It's called "Wig In A Box".
It's from the movie Hedwig and the Angry Inch, which I saw on Saturday night with Ali.
It's an amazing movie.
And an extremely catchy song.

"On nights like this
when the world's a bit amiss
and the lights go down
across the trailer park
I get down
I feel had
I feel on the verge of going mad
and then it's time to punch the clock

I put on some make-up
and turn up the tape deck
and pull the wig down on my head
suddenly I'm Miss Midwest
Midnight Checkout Queen
until I head home
and put myself to bed

I look back on where I'm from
look at the woman I've become
and the strangest things
seem suddenly routine
I look up from my Vermouth on the rocks
a gift-wrapped wig still in the box
of towering velveteen.

I put on some make-up
and some LaVern Baker
and pull the wig down from the shelf
Suddenly I'm Miss Beehive 1963
Until I wake up
And turn back to myself

Some girls they have natural ease
they wear it any way they please
with their French flip curls
and perfumed magazines
Wear it up
Let it down
This is the best way that I've found
to be the best you've ever seen

I put on some make-up
and turn up the eight-track
I'm pulling the wig down from the shelf
Suddenly I'm Miss Farrah Fawcett
from TV
until I wake up
and turn back to myself

Shag, bi-level, bob
Dorothy Hammil do,
Sausage curls, chicken wings
It's all because of you
With your blow dried, feather back,
Toni home wave, too
flip, fro, frizz, flop,
It's all because of you
It's all because of you
It's all because of you

I put on some make-up
turn up the eight-track
I'm pulling the wig down from the shelf
Suddenly I'm this punk rock star
of stage and screen
and I ain't never
I'm never turning back"

Best Superbad Sites

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http://www.superbad.com/1/turkey/turkey.html
http://www.superbad.com/1/posture/index.html
http://www.superbad.com/1/monster/index.html
http://www.superbad.com/1/plumbing/index.html
http://www.superbad.com/1/man/superbee.html
http://www.superbad.com/1/f/f.html
http://www.superbad.com/1/ash/tray.html

More later
http://www.superbad.com/1/trunk/trunk.html

Of Mice and Men Summary for Project

When the work is tough, the road is long, and your companion is not very bright, it’s hard to dream. George, however, has big plans for himself and Lennie - farmhouse, some land, rabbits and livestock. But Lennie, with his dim intellect, is continually gets them into trouble and out of work. Can they stay out of trouble long enough to keep their dream alive, or will the son of their new employer tear their hopes to shreds?

Goodbye - Hootie and the Blowfish

This song is stuck in my head, and I absolutely love the a-capella-ness of it. Plus the words are... quite pretty. And I love Darius' voice.

Tomorrow used to be a day away
Now love is gone and you’re into someone far away.
I never thought the day would come
When I would see his hand, not mine,
Holding onto yours because I could not find the time.
Now I can’t deny
Nothing lasts forever
I don’t want to leave
And I see the tear drops in your eyes
I don’t want to live to see the day we say goodbye
Now there comes another part of life that I call alone
Sitting at a bar with Chris
And I can’t leave 'cause my house ain’t no home, no.
I just wanna touch you girl
I wanna feel you close to me
Without your love I would give up now
And walk away so easily.
So maybe while you’re young
We’ll figure out together
That even with the pain, there’s a remedy
And we’ll be all right
I don’t want to live to see the day we say goodbye.
When I first met you I couldn’t love anyone
But you stole my dreams and you made me see
That I can walk under the sun
And I can still be me
And now I can’t deny nothing lasts forever.
But I don’t want to leave and see the teardrops in your eyes
So baby while we’re young let’s figure out together
That even with the pain there’s a remedy
And we’ll be all right.
I don’t want to live to see the day we say goodbye,
We say goodbye, oh goodbye, goodbye.

"Running after me..."

The movie "Can't Hardly Wait" is one of my favourites. Sure, you might say it's a teen party movie. But it's got a message to it. At least one. "Fate can only take you so far..." I love the soundtrack as well. I didn't realize it until last night, but it's a Run DMC song that's playing as Kenny goes into the bathroom to get ready to lose his virginity... ah, the irony and fate in that scene!

A lovestruck Romeo sings a streetsus serenade
Laying everybody low with me, a lovesong that he made
Finds a convenient streetlight, steps out of the shade
Says something like, "You and me babe, how about it?"

Juliet says, "Hey, it’s Romeo! You nearly gimme a heart attack!"
He’s underneath the window, she’s singing, "Hey, la, my boyfriend’s back.
You shouldn’t come around here, singing up at people like that!
Anyway what you gonna do about it?"

Juliet, the dice were loaded from the start
And I bet, and you exploded in my heart
And I forget the movie song
When you wanna realise it was just that the time was wrong Juliet?

Come up on different streets, they both were streets of shame
Both dirty, both mean, yes, and the dream was just the same
And I dreamed your dream for you, and your dream is real
How can you look at me as if I was just another one of your deals?

Where you can fall for chains of silver, you can fall for chains of gold
You can fall for pretty strangers and the promises they hold
You promised me everything you promised me think and thin
Now you just says, "Oh, Romeo, yeah, you know I used to have a scene with him."

Juliet when we made love you used to cry
You said "I love you like the stars above I’ll love you till I die."
There’s a place for us you know the movie song
When you gonna realise it was just that the time was wrong Juliet?

I can’t do the talk like they talk on TV
And I can’t do a love song like the way it’s meant to be
I can’t do everything but I’d do anything for you
I can’t do anything except be in love with you

And all I do is miss you and the way we used to be
All do is keep the beat and bad company
All I do is kiss you through the bars of a rhyme
Juliet I’d do the stars with you any time

Juliet when we made love you used to cry
You said "I love you like the stars above I’ll love you till I die."
There’s a place for us you know the movie song
When you gonna realise it was just that the time was wrong Juliet?

A lovestruck Romeo sings a streetsus serenade
Laying everybody low with me, a lovesong that he made
Finds a convenient streetlight steps out of the shade
Says something like, "You and me babe, how about it?"

(That's "Romeo and Juliet" by Dire Straits)

Confusion

I really have no idea how some things come to be said about me. I consider how people have told me about things I do, things I have no recollection of doing. I don't drink and I don't do drugs, so it's not substance abuse that's causing my lack of memory; I'm not playing dumb or pretending to forget. The only conclusion I can come to is that my actions have been misinterpreted, misconstrued, reinvented along the way, through so many tellings and retellings.

And now people are deliberately avoiding me. Now, I've never deliberately avoided anyone in my life, because even if someone has done something wrong, I believe people can change, can atone for their mistakes, can become better people because of them in the long run. I believe in being cordial to any old person you meet.

Ach, well. The only reason I bother about it at all is because some of these people have my stuff. Otherwise, if they don't want to talk to me, that's their decision, and I make it a point to not agonize over other people's decisions.

Now, back to Bradbury research...

I wish I was an alien, at home behind the sun...

I love music.

Recently:
"Momentary Lapse of Reason" by Pink Floyd
"Achtung Baby" by U2
"rearviewmirror" by Pearl Jam, disc 2

Also "Zooropa" by U2, just so I can mention this quote...
"Some days you can't stand the sight of a puppy..."

Exhaustion!

All right. Holiday vacation? Yeah, full of late nights and early mornings. By the time school comes around again, Hannah has zero energy. So. I have Jazz Band every morning - Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday - and now this week and next week we have Dance Team Friday mornings. Eurgh. Then with dance, homework, Monty Python reruns, Aqua Teen Hunger Force, etc., I'm up a bit late... okay, so I realize it's my fault, but for some reason I just can't sleep. And then Brandon calls last night around 10... yeah. And apparently Jim called before that, but you know what? I really don't feel like talking to him right now. The guy I really do want to talk with is difficult to talk to over the phone, and the guy who lives around here is... well, we're just friends, really, and he's in one of my classes so we can talk then, but it's not like we go out and do things together, go to movies or go with a group out to eat, and it's kind of frustrating. So anyway, I think that might be what keeps me up nights.

Chemistry Quotes:
"How did you know that?"
"Cause I'm... Steve Durey?"

"Hannah's on drugs!"
"Who told you?"
"Your mom!"
"Really?"
"Yeah."
"...how often do you talk to Tyler?"
(End Chemistry Quotes)

Right then, got to go, Molly's figured out who I was talking about up there (third guess! Is it that obvious? Can it POSSIBLY be that obvious?!?) and we have to be in PE on time today because Murphy's coming, and he thinks he's our principal, so... yeah. *sigh*